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Below is a poem i wrote last November, i decided to put it here for Leslie Fans to read.


What is life, if all there seems to be to it are questions that cannot be answered?

It may seem a never-ending journey of self-discovery but what is uncovered can be a gift in itself,

Our world is forfilled with unseen magic and unique characteristics that make up the path that is layed upon us,

One makes their life full of pain and hatred, which leads to a waste of a priceless soul,

Another leaves an unforgettable legacy behind their saddened death,

Whatever we do with the time given,

It should be shared with joy and with those who bring upon happiness to those who desire it most.

Insider's View of the Funeral Proceedings.
Translated by Nicole Tan

Leslie Cheung Funeral after his Suicide

The funeral ceremony of superstar Leslie Cheung was the most tearful in years. While inside the funeral parlor, more than 400 relatives and friends were raining tears. Outside, thousands on fans were sobbing their hearts out. A close friend of Leslie who witness all this said, "Leslie's life has not gone to waste".

Daffy Tong (Leslie's Long Term Partner) was referred to throughout the ceremony. One of Leslie's niece who went on stage to offer her last words told him, "Uncle Daffy, I represent my Uncle to thank you. I feel that he is so blessed to have you."
The ceremony began yesterday at 11.10am. While Tong and Leslie's family were arrived at 8am to make the preparation. Donning a black suit, black tie and a yellow rose on his lapel, Tong sat in the first seat of the front row reserved for family. Sitting next to him was Leslie's elder sister. Tong sat very straight up, with a sorrowful expression on his face, would occasionally whisper into Leslie's sister ear in return she often patted Tong's shoulder gently. At times, Tong would stare at the portrait of Leslie, which he choose, lost in thought.

At 11.10am, the ceremony began. Hong Kong DJ So See Wong went on stage and recounted the life of Leslie. After each section, a short interview of Leslie was played. When Leslie's voice first emerged, many gasped followed by a deep silence, as the participant wanted to hear his voice, to hang onto his words.

Leslie Cheung Funeral Report

When Leslie "related" his painful early showbiz years, Tong who did not cry previously in public took out some tissues and dabbed them at the corner of his eyes. Leslie's voice continued, "When I first started showbiz, my monthly pay is $1,000. I paid $500 for the rent and I gave $300 to my mother. There was a small clothing allowance. The rest I used the rest for myself. Sometimes, I would even save a few tens at the month's end!"

As the ceremony progress, DJ So said, "Leslie met Tong on 9 Dec 1982 at Regent Hotel. At 2 Jan of the following year, the two started their 20 years relationship." This was also printed on the ceremony card. Leslie and Tong were at Hong Kong's frontier, being the first openly gay couple.

And at the speech end's so said, "And in April 2003, Leslie passed away," Tong had to look for tissues once again.

Leslie's good friend, Jacky Cheung, Tsui Hark (director), James Wong (lyricist), and niece took turns to make their farewell speeches. Each time, Tong's tears could not stop falling, many times; Leslie's sister had to help him look for tissues. Those speaking often mentioned Tong. Jacky Cheung praised Leslie for

being brave enough to love and to express himself.

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Leslie's niece forthrightly told Tong, "Uncle Daffy, tenth uncle treasured your relationship. He said that you once lent him a few months's worth of salary to help him tie over the difficult period. For the past year, I have also witnessed what real love is. You have never forsaken tenth uncle who was suffering from depression, taking care of him day and night. Uncle Daffy, I represent my Uncle to thank you. I feel that he is so blessed to have you!"
Photos of Leslie, coordinated with Leslies song "The Wind Kept Blowing" followed this. First, it was Leslie with his first girlfriend, Mao, followed by pictures with Maggie Cheung, Anita Mui and others. And then, there were many photo shots of Leslie and Tong together. The last photo was of Leslie, walking into a forest alone.
Throughout, Tong longingly stared at the screen, not wanting to miss any of Leslie's shots. But when the song played to the part "You are already in my heart, no need to asked remembering who". Tears flowed again and someone had to give him another box of tissue.

As the ceremony was ending and it was time to say goodbye. Tong could only stand; his body could not withstand the sorrow and pain. Two of Leslie's assistant had to help him walk away.
Leslie's twin nieces carried Leslie's portrait, followed by Tong's behind. This time, they played the song "The Moon Represents My Heart". In which Leslie expresses his love for Tong.
At the crematorium, Tong had to face the most difficult job. It was he who had to send Leslie on his way by pushing the button for incineration. He cried out out loudly. While others sobbed, "Gor Gor Ah! Gor Gor Ah!"
Later, at lunch, Tong was able to get a few words out when someone asked after him. He said, "I am like a cloud, not knowing where to float to". The friend quietly consoled him saying he had to take care because there is still a long way to go. Tong replied, "I know."

Final Goodbye

Pop singer Leslie Cheung's fans gather to pay last respect
Xin Hua News Agency

Fans, showbiz friends and relatives of Cantonese pop singer Leslie Cheung Kwok Wing thronged streets around the Hong Kong Funeral Home Tuesday to pay him their last respect.

Thousands continued their mourning from yesterday, dressed in black and armed with bouquets of white flowers braving a steady drizzle.
Local TV televised live the mourning situation as fans waited outside on King's Road to catch the last glimpse of their idol.

A few people were also reported to have fainted after being overwhelmed by extreme sadness.

Some spent time in long queues singing Cheung's old hits, while for others, sounds of sobbing broke through the words as they were unable to contain their grief and wept.

Some told the media that it was hard for them to come to terms with the truth that Cheung, enjoying high popularity, killed suddenly himself by leaping off the 24th floor of the five-star Mandarin Oriental Hotel in Central on Hong Kong Island on April 1.

White wreaths were also received from Cheung's international fan clubs from as far away as Germany, France and Japan, and also from the Chinese mainland and Taiwan province.

Leslie's Tragic Fall

Was any actor as beautiful as Leslie Cheung? Did anyone bring to the gift of glamour the seductive insolence Leslie exuded? His first appearance in a filmhis face soft and smooth, with lips that expertly puckered or poutedhad the impact of a struck match. The screen flared to life; suddenly there was heat, and the incense of sulfur. To see him as the hurtful teddy boy in Days of Being Wild, the proud warrior in The Bride with White Hair and the dominant demon romancer in Phantom Lover is to realize there's nothing more exhilarating than a trip to hell with him at the wheel.

Leslie (everyone from his co-workers to screaming fans called Cheung Kwok-wing by his English name) was gorgeous since his first TV appearance in a 1976 song contest. He matured in acting ability and the use of his smoldering charisma, but never seemed to age. "Guess how old he is," Hong Kong film folk would ask, then declare that Asia's perpetual bad boy was flirting with middle ageas suavely and as masterfully as he flirted with everything and everyone else. In his films, and in the spectacular concerts that had him crooning ballads one minute and flouncing in a Jean-Paul Gaultier gown the next, Leslie was the consummate tease. He performed a seven-veils dance for us, and we lost our heads to him.

He turned 46 last September, and he will forever stay that age. But he chose a drastic method of staving off wrinkles, a potbelly, and the whims of a fickle public. On Tuesday 1 April 2003 he scheduled a tea with his friend and former agent, Chan Suk-fan, at a favorite haunt, the Mandarin Oriental hotel. When he didn't show, Chan called Leslie, who was on the terrace of the hotel's 24th-floor gym. He said he'd meet her outside; he'd be right down. It was a final teasea sick joke, reallyfor when Chan came out she found his body on the pavement. He had leapt to his death.

A fall from a great height: that befits a tragic hero or, in Leslies case, a tragic diva. For if Brigitte Lin embodied the woman-man in such '90s films as Swordsman II and Ashes of Time, then Leslie was Asia's definitive man-woman. More persuasively so, because for Lin it was a role; for Leslie it was life. A gay man in a society intolerant of gays, he never explicitly acknowledged his homosexuality. But neither did he try to suppress it, as some Hong Kong stars have done. He was too much the showman, the exhibitionist, in his way the truth teller. He played the pining gay opera star in Farewell My Concubine, then Tony Leung Chiu-wai's caustic lover in Happy Together. Both movies were worldwide hits and gave him a notoriety that didn't quite do him justice. He was gay, yes, but he was mainly other: a luscious rebuttal to Hong Kong cinema's stern or strutting machismo.

He promenaded this otherness. It made him a star but obscured his talent. It is a gift to be beautiful; it is an art to know how to lend that beauty to a film character. An actor of commanding subtlety, Leslie rarely overstated an emotion because he knew what the camera saw: he knew the camera loved him.

What did his friends, fans and critics know? We know what it was like to see Leslieto sense his charm, his pretty petulance and his dangerbut not what it was like to be Leslie. He seemed so pleased in there, in the fairy-tale kingdom of Cheung, but he may have felt that his castle was crumbling, that his subjects were restless. (Tony Leung was landing the big roles Leslie wanted.) And perhaps the mirror told him he was no longer the fairest one of all.

The day after Leslie's death, his longtime lover, Daffy Tong Hok-tak, said that the star had tried killing himself with sleeping pills last November, and that he had been seriously depressed for 20 years. Twenty years! Back to the time of his first hit album; all through his reign as Canto-pop's top star and Hong Kong film's golden boy. If his eminence and allure could not make him happy, then he was a braver, more cunning artist than anyone suspected. Leslie Cheung danced before us, alluringly, and only let the seventh veil drop last week, revealing the desperate child beneath the diva's brilliant plumage.

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